Is it just me?

...I think so Bee. It isn't normal to feel the untold sadness that has formed in my heart which is planning to cover and swallow up the little bit of me striving to survive. Am thinking back and "Dates! Dates!! Dates!!!" or years keep coming. My body's itching with so much uneasiness/apprehension. I'm filled with regret, so much of it its hurting and I feel a strong hollow in me. Definitely not the emotions I want to feel right now. No-one might understand, even those who might can't tell what am feeling on the inside or even imagine. Lesson Learned, Broken Promises, Stolen Innocence, Lost Childhood, Love/Loss of a family; this are all I have to look forward to daily. To reminisce. To mourn. Loss. Deep loss, tears, loved ones, slowly turning into memories. Giving me nothing to hold on to. You don't know who you have, what you have, no-one does. Everyday is a struggle. Tears running down, heart beating...#Pause... Step back. Life has gotten so hard. I just want to be better, I want to live with myself and everything, every sadness, hurt, heart break, loss. I just wanna go. 

*Stepping Away...not slipping away. I hope*

Am Leaning On The Edge