1,048 Days and counting

Yes! Its been approximately 1,048 days since the last time my blog was updated: The 3rd of January 2013. So much has definitely transpired between then and now. For instance, I was just entering sophomore year and still had no inkling on what my major would be (now I'm a senior at Georgia State University graduating this winter with a BA in Economics). Besides that immense change, I was still single as of January 2013 but that definitely changed the next month of February when I began dating my boyfriend. We've been together for 2 years, 9 months and counting. In terms of friendships, I've made new friends and lost just a few and despite how hard it is to maintain friendships. I am very thankful for the wonderful people that have remained in my life from then up until now.

I can't wait to really talk about a lot of things that I have experienced, my life has surely changed in so many ways whether it be in a good way or not so pleasant way. Thankful to God! Let the new beginnings begin... Lol that was funny.

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Me as a "friend" & Having friends

I know I'm not the only one who has ever wondered who my "real friends" are. I know I am not really a nice person. I have heard folks/friends call me "mean" either jokingly or seriously. At the end of the day, I always wonder why people even like me. I don't have many friends but I talk to a lot of people. I can count my friends with my finger tips and I bet they aren't up to ten. I have associates, and they are folks I talk to at random or for different reasons at the end of the day I really won't consider them as a friend because I don't trust them, won't be able to care for them deeply and wouldn't normally do things for them as I would if they were my close friends.

Do people consider me a friend? Someone they can talk to at any time? * shrugs* I don't know. I couldn't answer that myself because I can't say I know what goes through their minds or even what they think about me. Days back I said "I wonder how my friends cope with me" and one of my friend replied saying "You don't wanna know". I don't blame him -_- I know I'm a very difficult person, I am very blunt and will not hesitate to say what's on my mind. Yes I might get irrational, uninterested, or annoying occasionally. That's the way I am. I might get to like a person and randomly stop talking to them for a reason or none :) I don't like to get attached to people because folks are so unreliable and so I am. You might see me and like me if you meet me for the first time or talk to me for the first time or you may not even like me.

One person I respect is my best friend "Ese" Cut33ssay on Twitter :) We've been friends for over 2 years. She knows me well enough. Whenever I change my mind and don't wanna say anything to her she tells me "Don't you dare say never mind" lol. At the end of the day I tell her whatever it is I want to even after hesitating at first. We don't talk on a daily basis but I have her in mind and no matter what I know she's always going to be here even if I go away without saying a word for a week or two (sounds selfish but its true). Whenever I act rather immaturely, or get mad and don't say anything to her, she always says hi first :P even when I'm in the wrong. She also knows my misfortunes with boys lol but yeah that's a story for another day. I know I don't appreciate her well enough but I love her to the death. 

See, if you have a friend like this be nice, grateful, and respect them more often. Don't be a bitch like me :( I know I have my moments. Don't judge me either. I might be mean, I might seem like I could care less about your problems and all but I'm not scary. If you want to get to know me, I'll make time for that to happen -_- Well I might but o well. This is exactly what people who are my friends go through *sigh*.

Anyway, hope you can be a better friend to the ones who regard you as a "friend" !

Dear Blog

Dear Blog, 
     Its been a while. Not that I haven't had time. Ok I take that back, I really don't have time. Been busy with summer school. Its turning out well but it is stressful. Trying to juggle reading Literature and math work is definitely not easy. Have been late to English class since the beginning of the semester and have missed two tests. That mad me cry cos that really isn't a way to start off the semester especially since I can't make up any missed test. #Sigh
     Personal life. I was gonna blog about "Jealousy" before I fell sick but I think am gonna move that to some other time. I did want to do it so bad but err ...moving on :P I got something else in mind. Seems pretty interesting. I got a new nickname from Leema♥ "Beenana" (^_^) so now i call her "Leenana" :P We rhyme and complement one another. All of my friends are having a good time now ;) talk about a great phase and the one who isn't....she's getting better. Love life? err still working on perfecting that. 
     Besides all of this...the crazy stuffs and all, I'm thankful for everything that's going on in my life, no matter how serious it is or not. For my friends, I love them to pieces. :D I'll get back to blogging soon I pinky promise. 

Have a fun summer!

Deep Thoughts - Trust

So am sitting here talking to a "friend" and thinking to myself, "do i really trust this person?" The answer is no, because am not sure if I trust her enough to actually tell my affairs to her. Past events and experiences with people in my life hasn't even made it easy for me to open up especially about certain parts of my life. This kinda shows why I really don't have that many friends. Some friends don't want your happiness and the thing is you never know who feels the same way about you even if your feelings towards them are genuine. I can sit here and count with the tip of my fingers the people I consider as my real friends. Why? its just that easy. 


Final Thoughts: I don't trust people at least not easily. I strongly believe people can put on a visage just to get close to you, know more about you and you just never know what intentions they have whatsoever. I say stay vigilant, divulge ONLY information you want to share, be careful, and be mindful of the company you keep.

Been a while :D

Well let me brief you about what has been happening. I finally finished my exams yesterday. I forgot to turn in my Communications home work which was due on Friday. I had the grace of bringing it yesterday which was Monday but I forgot, FML.


My friends have been fine. My life has been fun. There's nothing more I want than for everything to go well in my life at the moment. Summer is fast approaching, I really wish I didn't have to go to school for classes but err its all good, whatever happens I guess.


I have stopped talking to some people in my life and am glad they don't seem to have a problem with that. I've ex-ed a few of my "so called best friends" and traded them all in for new ones. If they want to be in mind life, they'd at least make an effort. Until then, we're all associates....maybe not!

Stay Safe Always

Good Mood

Lately have been in a pretty good mood. Everything in my life has been consistent. Life has never been better. Am having fun all the way. Am doing pretty good. I feel blessed and thankful for the friends I have and the chance to be alive daily to talk to them. Well here are recent photographs of me :]