1,048 Days and counting

Yes! Its been approximately 1,048 days since the last time my blog was updated: The 3rd of January 2013. So much has definitely transpired between then and now. For instance, I was just entering sophomore year and still had no inkling on what my major would be (now I'm a senior at Georgia State University graduating this winter with a BA in Economics). Besides that immense change, I was still single as of January 2013 but that definitely changed the next month of February when I began dating my boyfriend. We've been together for 2 years, 9 months and counting. In terms of friendships, I've made new friends and lost just a few and despite how hard it is to maintain friendships. I am very thankful for the wonderful people that have remained in my life from then up until now.

I can't wait to really talk about a lot of things that I have experienced, my life has surely changed in so many ways whether it be in a good way or not so pleasant way. Thankful to God! Let the new beginnings begin... Lol that was funny.

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Dear Blog

Dear Blog, 
     Its been a while. Not that I haven't had time. Ok I take that back, I really don't have time. Been busy with summer school. Its turning out well but it is stressful. Trying to juggle reading Literature and math work is definitely not easy. Have been late to English class since the beginning of the semester and have missed two tests. That mad me cry cos that really isn't a way to start off the semester especially since I can't make up any missed test. #Sigh
     Personal life. I was gonna blog about "Jealousy" before I fell sick but I think am gonna move that to some other time. I did want to do it so bad but err ...moving on :P I got something else in mind. Seems pretty interesting. I got a new nickname from Leema♥ "Beenana" (^_^) so now i call her "Leenana" :P We rhyme and complement one another. All of my friends are having a good time now ;) talk about a great phase and the one who isn't....she's getting better. Love life? err still working on perfecting that. 
     Besides all of this...the crazy stuffs and all, I'm thankful for everything that's going on in my life, no matter how serious it is or not. For my friends, I love them to pieces. :D I'll get back to blogging soon I pinky promise. 

Have a fun summer!

Is it just me?

...I think so Bee. It isn't normal to feel the untold sadness that has formed in my heart which is planning to cover and swallow up the little bit of me striving to survive. Am thinking back and "Dates! Dates!! Dates!!!" or years keep coming. My body's itching with so much uneasiness/apprehension. I'm filled with regret, so much of it its hurting and I feel a strong hollow in me. Definitely not the emotions I want to feel right now. No-one might understand, even those who might can't tell what am feeling on the inside or even imagine. Lesson Learned, Broken Promises, Stolen Innocence, Lost Childhood, Love/Loss of a family; this are all I have to look forward to daily. To reminisce. To mourn. Loss. Deep loss, tears, loved ones, slowly turning into memories. Giving me nothing to hold on to. You don't know who you have, what you have, no-one does. Everyday is a struggle. Tears running down, heart beating...#Pause... Step back. Life has gotten so hard. I just want to be better, I want to live with myself and everything, every sadness, hurt, heart break, loss. I just wanna go. 

*Stepping Away...not slipping away. I hope*

Am Leaning On The Edge