...I shouldn't have believed

#Np Tell me you love me - Leela James (my song last winter)

What was I thinking?! Well love wasn't returned #Sigh. I don't think I make a good story teller so I won't bother with the details. Let's just say what isn't worth it got "disposed and trashed". I do have a way of expressing my feelings which could be pretty outspoken and that sorta doesn't work in my favor sometimes. I never thought against it especially these past months. This week showed that regardless of how I feel for a person, or the things I do for people theirs always gonna be someone who ruins things for others :) and am smiling because I do that when I'm upset. (lol)


I crashed, I let my feelings get in the way. I wanted to feel secure, I wanted to know someone had my back. To know that the one who "claims" or "claimed" to love me really did. The reaction I got was nothing like I expected (cold shoulders). I felt myself tear down, the one person who always said "Bee you can always talk to me" was the one who ignored me and didn't even trust me enough to tell me how he felt in return. I didn't think I messed up in anyway, rather I felt like the guilt card was being played on me. Tables turned so quickly! If messing up involves me protecting my interest and getting reassured, then something is wrong! O_O


I never gave up, not once. I thought I'd hold on, tried my best and hoped but at the end of the day I felt so disappointed. I'm not forcing my love. You say something to me and I take your word up and your actions as well. Its saddening that people can't act maturely or have normal conversations without their egos coming into play. I felt let down, alone and numb. I swore I wouldn't go back to the old me, the one who didn't care, who was least interested in how anyone felt. That one who couldn't be bothered about anything. I know that sounds selfish but now I might. I'll block people off, act like they're non existent, be by myself, drop all the associates and cut all ties from several people. I don't regret anything, I just feel hurt and stupid. Possibly made a fool of myself? That I may never know. All I know is...

 ...I shouldn't have believed. :* Bee

UGLY PEOPLE?

Ahhhhhh I don't get it! 

I'm not sure why people get offended when someone calls another person "ugly" or why people even fuss over the use of the word "ugly". To be sincere, I used to use the word ugly a lot until someone told me to quit :( so instead I went for "Un Fine" :D which kinda hurts the feelings of the other person less. Today there was an argument on Twitter with some chic who called someone ugly and apparently some guy didn't like it...See proof:

The guy's tweet: 

RudeBadtBoiz aDedayo 

@ 

@sinzubarbie I Don't hv anyfin to say to You.. Buh U just dnt go around calling People UGLY.. C'mon U aint All Dat aswell.. N U KNW IT

 Well damn o_O that seemed serious, so I had to zoom the avatar...and yeah the chic was ok -.- I don't think people who aren't that cute should be calling others ugly.... :( Not cool!

Her reaction to being called ugly: 

( & she seems either pissed or in denial :D me i dnt know)

sinzubarbie mide toh 'quality' 

Ehehehe. Me ugly? Smh!!

A Tweep's reaction:

NaijaSillyClown Naija Clown 

How can u be ugly and u call oda peeps ugly.... Datz madness mehn!! (I say #DEEP) lol.

I think calling someone ugly if you're ugly is BLASPHEMOUS! ...calling someone ugly just cos youre fine is just WICKED -_- and UNFAIR :P But shoot we all are guilty of this at one point in our lives we've said the "ugly" word.

My personal thoughts about ugly people and the company they keep: 

"When ugly girls argue about being called ugly :| and their friends want to dispute that fact." Don't ever do this! Just keep quiet, if this applies to you

On that note, here's a tweet I came across

Ay_bkini •VERIFIED 

UG-lee gals ҍҽ QUIET

Well people should really accept people...whether ugly or not for however they look...what we can't accept however, someone else just might like. That being said, ALWAYS STAY LOOKING PRETTY OR FYEEE AF!