#10signs he loves you

This was gotten from a boy's point of view, well a man's actually. None of these is mine :

1. He'll call you at least twice daily.
2. When you tell him about some other guy who's showing interest in you. He'll feel jealous. You'll notice the jealousy in his eyes & voice.
3. He'll always want to be there for you, even if he can't solve your problem, he'll show some concern.
4. He'll not hesitate to remind you of his love for you at least once in 2 hours.
5. Sex won't be on his mind, he'll not show any interest in your body.
6. He'll always share his future plans with you.
7. He'll beg you to follow him home so you can know his family or mum.
8. He'll always want to make you laugh by telling you some little jokes.
9. No matter what you do or say to him, he'll not be easily offended.
10. He'll show you how important you are to him, by making you his best friend :)

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Long Distance

Lol, I know I always have something to say. Especially with my best friend. I get excited over little things....I need to stop that. Anyway I never thought about blogging on Long Distance but it occurred to me while I was in bed so I thought I'd go ahead, Whenever I talk about a guy I like to my best friend almost always are they far away from me. But yeah I usually never take "talking to them" as a waste of time or something rather unrealistic especially when I truly like the person. Since the beginning of this year, I've only spoken to two people whom I was very interested in. I would have said yea in a blink of an eye lol. My best friend knowing the situation (distance) said to me, "I know you, you can't do this. After a while you'll get bored or tired and move on." 90% of the time I get mad because i really want to prove that I can but it's even more annoying when I know deep down she's right. I tried to assure myself on both occasion that things would turn out different. I'd tell her, "For him I'd go the distance." blah blah. Well I would have but then it's just me trying so hard not to face the harsh reality of things.

For most people they can withstand distance, others practically can't. Its definitely an agreement between the people involved. No use being in a relationship if its going to be one sided the whole time. Anyway, that's just about it. Do what pleases you. Night!

...and by the way, the thought of distance breaks my heart.

Eternal Rest

I go to sleep every night wondering if I'll wake up to see another day. When people say things like "go and die", "I hope you die", I think, #pause, sigh and always reply, "I'll die when I'm 96". With each passing day, I have less faith in those words. I've wished for the world to end on several occasions, all to no avail. Life has gotten so hard, and so has living. Today my mum called to tell me two people close to us died. One was my aunt. I remember going to the hospital to see her last month and I wasn't pleased with the sight. I hadn't been in a hospital in over two years. She looked bad, really really bad. I didn't know what to say to her. I told her she'd be fine, I remember my mum telling her "it's alright you hear, you'll get better." That day I prayed :) I prayed that she survived....but she didn't :'( . She died today. Nobody understands how I feel at this moment. </3 I feel broken. I wish everything would get better, but this isn't life at all. Nothing can get better in this system. Death #2. My other grandma, I know she was sick also but still...she didn't have to die either. She had people who needed her around. I'm more than saddened. They both left behind a whole lot of people crying.  2 deaths, 1 day.  I won't ask why.

I lost hope in life, the whole "living" thing doesn't amuse me any longer. I see each day as a struggle. I would love a permanent sleep right now but I'm only alive for my mum. I want to grow old and die in peace. I don't want to die young and I don't even want any of the people I want dying. I just want to be filled with joy and not sorrow.

....#Sigh one day it'll all get better. R.I.P

If tears could build a stairway,And memories a lane,I'd walk right up to HeavenAnd bring you home again.~Author Unknown

...I shouldn't have believed

#Np Tell me you love me - Leela James (my song last winter)

What was I thinking?! Well love wasn't returned #Sigh. I don't think I make a good story teller so I won't bother with the details. Let's just say what isn't worth it got "disposed and trashed". I do have a way of expressing my feelings which could be pretty outspoken and that sorta doesn't work in my favor sometimes. I never thought against it especially these past months. This week showed that regardless of how I feel for a person, or the things I do for people theirs always gonna be someone who ruins things for others :) and am smiling because I do that when I'm upset. (lol)


I crashed, I let my feelings get in the way. I wanted to feel secure, I wanted to know someone had my back. To know that the one who "claims" or "claimed" to love me really did. The reaction I got was nothing like I expected (cold shoulders). I felt myself tear down, the one person who always said "Bee you can always talk to me" was the one who ignored me and didn't even trust me enough to tell me how he felt in return. I didn't think I messed up in anyway, rather I felt like the guilt card was being played on me. Tables turned so quickly! If messing up involves me protecting my interest and getting reassured, then something is wrong! O_O


I never gave up, not once. I thought I'd hold on, tried my best and hoped but at the end of the day I felt so disappointed. I'm not forcing my love. You say something to me and I take your word up and your actions as well. Its saddening that people can't act maturely or have normal conversations without their egos coming into play. I felt let down, alone and numb. I swore I wouldn't go back to the old me, the one who didn't care, who was least interested in how anyone felt. That one who couldn't be bothered about anything. I know that sounds selfish but now I might. I'll block people off, act like they're non existent, be by myself, drop all the associates and cut all ties from several people. I don't regret anything, I just feel hurt and stupid. Possibly made a fool of myself? That I may never know. All I know is...

 ...I shouldn't have believed. :* Bee

Whoever I marry....

TT on Twitter....Thought I'd add mine here

• #whoeverimarry :D
• #whoeverimarry won't ever regret that decision
• #whoeverimarry will be happy forever (^_^)
• #whoeverimarry I don't want your family all up in "our" business
• #whoeverimarry has to laugh at my jokes :D at least one...I hear I get funny at times ;)
• #whoeverimarry am going to love you and we'll do bad things :D
• #whoeverimarry MUST keep his marriage vows..."For better, for worse" I no follow you do "Divorce"
• #whoeverimarry has to be ready to compromise with me and have my back at all times
• #whoeverimarry I really don't feel sorry for you :) You must know me before you decide to marry me :D
• #whoeverimarry MUST understand me....mood swings, impatient attitude, and yh that's it
• #whoeverimarry you're not allowed to flirt :) I will smash your head :D then take you to the Dr's
• #whoeverimarry must be ready to travel with me :D Yeah we'll be seeing places
• #whoeverimarry will be stuck with me :) ...FOREVER (that kinda sounded evil)
• #whoeverimarry Can like to appear now if he wants ;) Knowing that I've been waiting for him anyway
• #whoeverimarry ...well until we marry.

Would you rather lead someone on?

For weeks now, I've been stalling a certain person who claims to "like me". At first, I thought it was a joke or one of those things that would eventually pass. Apparently I was wrong, this made him even more persistent and I wasn't quite happy at all. It felt like he didn't listen to a word of what I said to him even though I had specifically told him I didn't really like him in that manner. I'm really not sure why I was straight forward or why I didn't think to lead him on like some females would have done. I guess we're all different, I didn't want him thinking there was a chance of something happening eventually when I knew otherwise and besides I've never been the type to take people seriously. I know that's bad but yeah that's a story for another day. So, even if he indeed liked me as he stated and I felt the same way, I would probably have laughed at the thought of him even openly telling me he was serious. #Sigh. I'm really not ready for anything and even if I was, I have no intention of being committed to anyone right now. Or should I just "just anyone". I have my mind set on someone already and until then, I'm just going to be testing the waters and playing balls :). Lol I know that seems like  WTF?! did she just say but o well.

Anyways, don't think of lying to someone if you really aren't into them. It saves them from heartache and it also prevents you from wasting your time. That being said, be thoughtful about whatever situation like this you might be in and the decision you make eventually. Be considerate ...always!

Safe!

Shoplifting for a purpose? or Mere stupidity?

I saw a series of tweets by a friend of mine Dezzzzzzi on Twitter narrating an unusual meeting with a girl and I thought I'd blog every bit of it with his permission. Nothing edited...go on and read: 

Never had it in mind to tweet this until the babe truly called me. 

I was in a super market today & I caught a very pretty girl shoplifting!! She stole a gold trinket & hid it in her joggers. I saw her & she knew but I decided to mind my business, she paid for other stuffs & went out, I purchased what took me there, on my way out, I felt a soft palm tapping me on my back, and it was the shoplifter!! She said hi, I reciprocated, then she introduced her self, I gave her a fake name, then she thanked me & asked for my number, I gave her!! That was in the morning, so she called few minutes ago, asking me why I decided to shut up, I told her that's me, I grew up minding my business!! She now told me the reason why she stole, she said her boyfriend got an American visa & he's from a poor home, but her own parents are rich!! And there was no money for him to buy flight ticket & some pocket money for him when he gets there, & her parents already told her to stop seeing the guy, so she could not walk up to them & tell them sup. So she decided to take that risk for him, since she was the one that sponsored all the traveling runs, it shouldn't be ticket money that would ruin everything. I felt touched & told her its OK I understand! But she should promise me she wouldn't do such again & she would go back & pay them when she's on cash, she promised. To me that's love :) ♥  

The moral of everything: Parents need to stop stigmatizing there kids from who they love, rich or poor, they should support them, because if that girl was caught & they decide to set her ablaze #justsaying her parent would be the one's to cry more, the guy would move on, innit?!!

I really liked this kindheartedness, not that I agree with her shoplifting. That's why I had to share. Feel free to follow Dezi on his Twitter https://twitter.com/#!/Dezzzzzzi 

UGLY PEOPLE?

Ahhhhhh I don't get it! 

I'm not sure why people get offended when someone calls another person "ugly" or why people even fuss over the use of the word "ugly". To be sincere, I used to use the word ugly a lot until someone told me to quit :( so instead I went for "Un Fine" :D which kinda hurts the feelings of the other person less. Today there was an argument on Twitter with some chic who called someone ugly and apparently some guy didn't like it...See proof:

The guy's tweet: 

RudeBadtBoiz aDedayo 

@ 

@sinzubarbie I Don't hv anyfin to say to You.. Buh U just dnt go around calling People UGLY.. C'mon U aint All Dat aswell.. N U KNW IT

 Well damn o_O that seemed serious, so I had to zoom the avatar...and yeah the chic was ok -.- I don't think people who aren't that cute should be calling others ugly.... :( Not cool!

Her reaction to being called ugly: 

( & she seems either pissed or in denial :D me i dnt know)

sinzubarbie mide toh 'quality' 

Ehehehe. Me ugly? Smh!!

A Tweep's reaction:

NaijaSillyClown Naija Clown 

How can u be ugly and u call oda peeps ugly.... Datz madness mehn!! (I say #DEEP) lol.

I think calling someone ugly if you're ugly is BLASPHEMOUS! ...calling someone ugly just cos youre fine is just WICKED -_- and UNFAIR :P But shoot we all are guilty of this at one point in our lives we've said the "ugly" word.

My personal thoughts about ugly people and the company they keep: 

"When ugly girls argue about being called ugly :| and their friends want to dispute that fact." Don't ever do this! Just keep quiet, if this applies to you

On that note, here's a tweet I came across

Ay_bkini •VERIFIED 

UG-lee gals ҍҽ QUIET

Well people should really accept people...whether ugly or not for however they look...what we can't accept however, someone else just might like. That being said, ALWAYS STAY LOOKING PRETTY OR FYEEE AF!