Love Things

 So today I sat down to actually blog. Yesterday has to be the saddest day ever with tears and all. Its like I got injected with the worst mood swing. First off it started from what I had read >_<  and I couldn't even tell if it was directed at me. Then the second guessing. And next bad news. It didn't even end there! Then I got to think about relationships and all. Its just not fair to have it one sided especially when the other party really likes you and you can't learn to appreciate them. At the end of the day when he or she leaves, you'd realise what you lost just by being a douche. It saddens me to see this happens, I'm like why are you even with this person who doesn't treat you right? It doesn't make sense. But o well, whatever happens.


Well well...my case is different. Not sure where to start. I just wish we were closer, no distance, no oceans separating us. I won't deny that am so in love with this guy. I dunno, I just hate to be filled with so much uncertainties...what if(s), but(s) ...and all. I need reassurance, I need him to tell him everything's gonna be fine, that he's got me, and he wants me to be his baby...and no-one else. If this doesn't turn out exactly how I'd want, its gonna be sad. Then I'd say its yet another lesson learned right? :( I'm tired of lessons already, I want to be serious and I need someone to take me seriously. I can't even go on right now. Okay that's it, bye!

This song just describes him (below's the first part of the song)

My whole life has changedSince you came in, I knew back thenYou were that special oneI'm so in love, so deep in love

Lee and Bee (Poem by bestfriends)

We made this up :) Leenana and Beenana...Lee has the first line & I the second...and it gets alternated:

We re 2 sad girls
Sittin' on a wall
One named Lee the other named Bee  

Fell in love Lee, fell in love Bee 

We in search of love
But our loves are far away
Which is sad. Love dsnt die they say.
Lee is mad, Bee is sad. Love is mad, this is sad...
We should fight cos it feels so right
you are right we are their blights
And in the end, we'll be alright :D

^_^ The end.

Dear Blog

Dear Blog, 
     Its been a while. Not that I haven't had time. Ok I take that back, I really don't have time. Been busy with summer school. Its turning out well but it is stressful. Trying to juggle reading Literature and math work is definitely not easy. Have been late to English class since the beginning of the semester and have missed two tests. That mad me cry cos that really isn't a way to start off the semester especially since I can't make up any missed test. #Sigh
     Personal life. I was gonna blog about "Jealousy" before I fell sick but I think am gonna move that to some other time. I did want to do it so bad but err ...moving on :P I got something else in mind. Seems pretty interesting. I got a new nickname from Leema♥ "Beenana" (^_^) so now i call her "Leenana" :P We rhyme and complement one another. All of my friends are having a good time now ;) talk about a great phase and the one who isn't....she's getting better. Love life? err still working on perfecting that. 
     Besides all of this...the crazy stuffs and all, I'm thankful for everything that's going on in my life, no matter how serious it is or not. For my friends, I love them to pieces. :D I'll get back to blogging soon I pinky promise. 

Have a fun summer!

Happy New Month

June- I want to be better :D

It could be today! ...a baby'll be born

So my neighbour told me minutes back to get ready within an hour...I think it might be time :D ...Time for the baby! Am not sure if am gonna be allowed into the room, watch the baby born etc but am pretty excited! The whole feeling of carrying a life in your belly and being heavy is still one of the most AMAZING things ever! Tick. Tock. Waiting patiently on that phone call (^_^) .

CONGRATS IN ADVANCE

I just realised...

...This might sound very stupid but I just realised that people's mood has an effect on me >_< Its really getting to me now and I don't think I appreciate or like it one bit. Have got the worst mood swings ever and I hate it if the person next to me is all sad and depressed cos then I just start feeling that way cos they are brushing it on me. Well maybe not intentionally but I'm taking from their bad energy. Yesterday was stupid enough and I get to wake up to a lot of B.S this morning. & am getting comments like "why are u attacking everyone" or "Am i mad at someone?" Am fine, I just don't get what the hell is wrong with the people around me. They need to grow up and stop acting like the world revolves around them. Get over it! Grow up & maybe my mood just might be better :[

In other words, "moods are contagious' -_- Please! Please!! ...now am speechless sef..bye!

Is it just me?

...I think so Bee. It isn't normal to feel the untold sadness that has formed in my heart which is planning to cover and swallow up the little bit of me striving to survive. Am thinking back and "Dates! Dates!! Dates!!!" or years keep coming. My body's itching with so much uneasiness/apprehension. I'm filled with regret, so much of it its hurting and I feel a strong hollow in me. Definitely not the emotions I want to feel right now. No-one might understand, even those who might can't tell what am feeling on the inside or even imagine. Lesson Learned, Broken Promises, Stolen Innocence, Lost Childhood, Love/Loss of a family; this are all I have to look forward to daily. To reminisce. To mourn. Loss. Deep loss, tears, loved ones, slowly turning into memories. Giving me nothing to hold on to. You don't know who you have, what you have, no-one does. Everyday is a struggle. Tears running down, heart beating...#Pause... Step back. Life has gotten so hard. I just want to be better, I want to live with myself and everything, every sadness, hurt, heart break, loss. I just wanna go. 

*Stepping Away...not slipping away. I hope*

Am Leaning On The Edge

First Hurt and all

So this picture reminds me of my very first boyfriend (lol). I doubt that would be or could be referred to as the greatest "hurt" ever err. It really doesn't matter. I call it a lesson learned. I was young and foolish, that was a very good eye opener not to make the same mistake twice. Well that has been successful so far.

 Whether first love, first crush, or first hurt; I'm glad I moved on with life!

Relationships- Who should do more

This is a tad confusing. I know a relationship involves two people who share the same interests and feel the same way as one another. ie they share mutual affections/goals. Now it seems people now act like its one-sided and I see people loving, giving their all and they aren't getting loved back. That's not how its supposed to be! You can't be selfish enough to want or need someone in your life and not deem it fit to show them you need them equally. That's B.S! People need to be loved and treated with respect, in the same manner you would expect to be treated. It doesn't matter what they are doing. RECIPROCATE!


My thoughts: A relationship should involve two people that love themselves no matter what any other person says. You can't have a person loving you while you sit around hoping things will work out the way manna fell from Heaven. You can't keep hoping because faith without work is dead. Don't get someone into a relationship if you're not ready, if you're still hurt from past relationship problems, or even if you have trust issues. Be kind enough to tell her/him how you feel if you think its getting nowhere. Stay safe and Yeah keep loving! :*

"Love doesn't have to hurt to turn out right"

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Deep Thoughts - Trust

So am sitting here talking to a "friend" and thinking to myself, "do i really trust this person?" The answer is no, because am not sure if I trust her enough to actually tell my affairs to her. Past events and experiences with people in my life hasn't even made it easy for me to open up especially about certain parts of my life. This kinda shows why I really don't have that many friends. Some friends don't want your happiness and the thing is you never know who feels the same way about you even if your feelings towards them are genuine. I can sit here and count with the tip of my fingers the people I consider as my real friends. Why? its just that easy. 


Final Thoughts: I don't trust people at least not easily. I strongly believe people can put on a visage just to get close to you, know more about you and you just never know what intentions they have whatsoever. I say stay vigilant, divulge ONLY information you want to share, be careful, and be mindful of the company you keep.

Learning di "Patois"

So todeh mi meet dis Jamaican gyal. Shi teach mi small ting inna Jamaican dialect called Patois. I like it a lot mehn. Mi wan try type dis ting and show her say mi fit ta do dis Patois. At di end of di day, shi say mi learn fass. #POW!!! Mi jus like di language enuh! I fi fawud down dere tough wen mi get di money to do so. Patois mawwwd i tell yu!


Geez trying to speak in a Jamaican slang isn't so easy and neither was learning it. I do ope shi fi elp and teach mi mur :D O by ti way e fi speak small :O Mi surprise. Mi fit copy an paste wi memories if possible. Ye mi do dis one....#wushu!


His attempt at speaking Patois :D Quite Impressive and yh i like ;)

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Jamaica all di way!

Been a while :D

Well let me brief you about what has been happening. I finally finished my exams yesterday. I forgot to turn in my Communications home work which was due on Friday. I had the grace of bringing it yesterday which was Monday but I forgot, FML.


My friends have been fine. My life has been fun. There's nothing more I want than for everything to go well in my life at the moment. Summer is fast approaching, I really wish I didn't have to go to school for classes but err its all good, whatever happens I guess.


I have stopped talking to some people in my life and am glad they don't seem to have a problem with that. I've ex-ed a few of my "so called best friends" and traded them all in for new ones. If they want to be in mind life, they'd at least make an effort. Until then, we're all associates....maybe not!

Stay Safe Always

Good Night

Dreams come true...well some

I'll be thinking about you

Sweet Dreams

Polka Dots

Have loved this for a while and I think I might be obsessed with it now...well maybe not obsessed but am in love! I remember last year I was crazy about stripes ;D But hey they both look good. Here's some pictures:

I love the feel

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Lady

Need i say more?

Classy

Happy New Month

Its May, #5  the number of grace. 

Hope all that you desire comes to pass....